A Letter from a Baby Who Is Being Sleep Trained
If you are passionate about sleep training and letting your baby cry it out, this is not the post for you. Please close the browser now.
But if you’re on the fence about sleep training, are against letting your baby cry it out or are a co-sleeping mom then keep on reading.
This post is not meant to judge moms who believe in sleep training, but to provide support for moms who feel like it’s not for them and are being told it’s the only way.
I love you so much. From the moment I was in your belly hearing your voice and feeling your heart beat I knew you were the right mama for me.
You made me feel so safe. You always worried about what to eat and made sure I was growing on track. You gave me the best hug the first time we met. Meeting you was the best day of my life, mama.
When you walk into a room, it lights up. You are my biggest protector and your arms is where I feel the power of you love. I don’t need anything else when I have you.
When you hold me I feel like all is better, I’m safe, I’m loved and I look at you and close my eyes. I love falling asleep when you hold me, mama.
Sometimes I wake up at night, I’m hungry and other times I just miss you. I call for you and your soothing touch makes me feel all better and I’m able to fall back asleep because mama, there’s something so magical about you.
But recently things have changed. I wonder if I did something to upset you. You left me crying in my crib. I was all alone. Scared. Hungry. I just wanted you to hold me.
I cried for you mama and you came but you patted my back and told me to sleep. You didn’t even pick me up.
I don’t know what you mean when you tell me I have to learn to fall asleep on my own. I just want you to hold me and feel safe. I want to fall asleep smelling you and listening to your heartbeat. It reminds me of those days when we were one.
I kept on crying for you and each time it felt like I had to call out for you for an eternity. Why aren’t you coming right away like you used…like you still do during the day?
You come but you don’t hold me. You don’t pick me up. You don’t even try to figure out why I’m crying. And each time I cry and cry for you until I give up. I give up because my head hurts, my eyes burn, my tummy is growling and my heart hurts because you’re not holding me.
Mama I’m so sad. Why are you leaving me to cry? I’m so little. I can’t do anything by myself. I need you.
I’m scared. I’m hungry. I’m lonely. I miss you. Please hold me.
Let me fall asleep in your arms mama. I know you feel in your heart this is the right way because I know your heart. I know you.
Don’t leave crying alone at night. I promise I will learn to sleep on my own once I’m ready but for now, please just hold me.
I miss you mama.