My dearest Cookie,
One year ago today I woke up feeling a bit “off” and tired. I had been awake most of the night with irregular contractions. We had a doctor’s appointment scheduled for that day and as I was leaving the house with daddy I told him we might come back home with you.
From the doctor’s office we went straight to the hospital (with a quick stop to get lunch). After 5 hours of intense labor I saw your angelical face. You had such a tiny body yet such a strong presence. I’ve never seen an angel before but I’m sure that day one came into my life: you.
You were so perfect. You barely cried and snuggled up against my body. You started nursing quickly and right then and there I knew my life my changed forever. It wasn’t about me anymore, it was about you, it was about daddy, it was about family.
In your first year of life you have taught me more than in all my years of my life. You showed me the meaning of unconditional love, you showed me how to be a different type of parent than pretty much everyone around us but not care because it is what you need and best for you, you taught me that raising you is all about love, listening and being there for you, you taught me how beautiful this world is and how a simple leaf can be fascinating, you taught me how laughter can heal and make my heart fuzzy, you taught me how to be a mom, a better person….
Every morning when you wake up you give me the biggest most loving smile I’ve ever seen. That is what keeps me going every day. I love being your mom and I love sharing every minute of the day with you. For me it’s never been too hard to be your mom. Sure, there had been moments where I’m exhausted or worried sick but I wouldn’t trade it for the world. I just love being your mom.
Cookie, I love being so much with you that if I wasn’t lucky enough to work from home I would have quit my job because no one can raise you with the love and attention I have for you…and you deserve the best. I have to admit I’m not perfect and I’ll probably make a lot of mistakes along the way but I will always give you my best and I will always shower you with love.
Sometimes when we’re at home and you’re playing you look at me, smile, drop what you’re doing and come and sit on my lap. You just sit there and smile at me. You melt my heart every time. You are so precious to me Cookie.
Seeing you grow has been a privilege. Having you as my daughter is a true blessing. I can’t wait to see you turn into a young woman although I hope it doesn’t happen too fast because I love your cute little self.
Never forget that I will always love you no matter what. I will always be here for you to support you and guide you when you need me to. I will always shower you with kisses, hugs and love, even when it gets embarrassing and I will always put your well being first.
Thank you for letting me be your mom. This is only the beginning of our journey…
Happy 1st birthday my little Cookie!
Love you,
Mama.
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