I’m holding you so close, squeezing you tight, filling myself up with your smell and feeling a little sad…
It hit me, all of a sudden… these are our lasts weeks together 24/7. After almost 6 years of being at home with you, you are going to school. You will have your own little adventures and you will be out there in the world, without me, for a big chunk of the day.
Ever since you were born we have been together.
Our lives revolved around fun activities for you, what you like, making you happy, teaching you things; we simply did everything together. And we sure had a blast!
Yes, it was hard at times but the hard moments don’t come even close to outweighing the good moments. You have filled my life with so much joy, so much happiness, that I didn’t even know was possible.
The last 5+ years of my life have revolved around you, and oh!, how have I enjoyed them! Now your life is going to change, you’re going to make new friends and discover new things all on your own. And my life is going to change too, I will have all this free time… It’s exciting, scary, and saddening all at the same time.
My heart feels a little heavy, these are our last 20 days together and so I hug you tight, so tight. This is the beginning of your life outside the home, and there will never be a time again where we will spend together all day, every day. This is it. This is all I have left. 20 more days.
I take a deep breath.
Then, I see you and realize how excited you are about going to school, and I know in my heart this is the right thing for you.
But, I will miss you.
I will miss cuddling in the middle of the day on our bed. I will miss hiding under the covers at 1pm because why not? I will miss running errands with you and most of all, I will just miss you.
This is life though, and just like a baby bird spread its wings and flies away, you are now spreading your own little wings and flying into the world. Spread your little wings and fly away little one. Go out into the world, spread a little love and spread your happiness…because this world needs more people like you.
It is now your time to shine!
Remember, I will always be here. Always. Forever. And Ever. No matter what you do, no matter who you are, no matter what you believe in, no matter… there’s nothing you can do in this world that would make me stop loving you.
So, know little one, that you are always my #1 priority, now and forever, and I will always be here for whenever you need me.
I love you. Always Will. And I will miss you, a lot, but I cannot wait to start this new stage with you and see you grow. I know we will have many more amazing moments…
As I lay in bed, holding you tight, I know one day I will look back to this time in our lives and I will cherish it as one of the most precious times in my life.
But for now, let’s not think about the past or the future, let’s cherish today, this very moment we have right now. Let’s hug hard, love hard, snuggle hard and make memories that will last us a lifetime.