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Here you are my little angel, sleeping on our bed with such an innocent look on your face. You’re my first born and we have been through so much together. You taught me how to be a mom and you shaped me in many ways. I learned the meaning of unconditional love the day you were born.
You’re a big sister now and don’t have my full attention anymore. I spend my days caring for you and your sister and sometimes I feel like I don’t do enough.
We have moments of laughter during the day, we play and it feels so magical. I know sometimes you miss me, you miss having me all to yourself but I also know you love your baby sister and as she grows older you’re going to play more and more with her.
You, Cookie, have my heart. Sometimes the guilt eats at me at night when I watch you sleep. I wonder if I do enough for you, if I split my time accordingly between both of you, I wonder how you perceive life now that you have a sister, I wonder if you feel loved all the time or if you get mad when I have to tend to your sister for a while. You seem happy and that makes my heart happy but I always wonder if I give you enough…
Part of being a mom is having this guilt, I think this is what pushes me to try to be better, for you, for your sister.
As I lay here next to you I hope you know how much I love you and how much I cherish every moment we’ve had together. You’re so big now, yet you’re only 3. Don’t grow so fast my little girl because life flies by and I want to make sure I cherish every second we have together.
I don’t know what the future has in store for us but I look forward to sharing many more precious moments with you. I promise I will always be here for you, I will always try my best and I will always love you…no matter what.
Thank you for the giving me the most wonderful years of my life.
Amy @ Life to the Full says
Beautiful words, wonderfully written. It’s amazing how “old” my 3 year old seems now that he is a big brother. I feel guilty often, too, wondering if he feels jealous or like I love him less now that he has a little brother. I really appreciated your post 🙂
Amy @ http://livinglifetruth.com/
Carolina says
Thanks Amy! I think us moms are too hard on ourselves, but that’s probably what pushes us to be better moms. 🙂