Every week I start my day hopeful and think to myself “this week I’ll get everything done”:
- do house chores
- cook a delicious meal
- write a blog post and actually publish it
- run errands
- and so on…
However, my #1 priority is my daughter. I’m with her all day so I have to make sure she’s fed, happy, with a clean diaper and entertained with fun activities. For fun we do several things a week like going to playgrounds, parks, meeting with friends and circle time at the library. I have a baby that likes to be out, have fun and dance!
This means that by the time my day is over I’m exhausted and haven’t even started to do the things I have to do, starting with work. I do get some work done during the day, but mostly quick things I can do on my phone while she naps so most of my work is done at night, when she’s sleeping.
Once I’m done working I usually try to do housework or blog, however my work is never done which means my time to do everything else is almost non-existent. Add to this the fact that I’m so tired from chasing my toddler all day and not having a decent sleep every night. It’s not my toddler’s fault but because I use the night to get as much as I can get done I always go to bed late. This is why, unfortunately, I’m not able to blog every week – even though it’s something I really want to do.
By the end of the week I’m exhausted and realize I didn’t get done half of what I wanted to do, I’ve been living like this pretty much from the day my baby was born – about 16 months. I just don’t know how to do it all and I’m starting to think it’s really not possible, not if my priority is my daughter and I’m not willing to change that. I dedicate my time to her so what suffers is everything else.
I honestly feel like I get things done half way:
-Sometimes I just do the bare minimum work because I need to sleep.
-I clean a portion of the house. I’m the type of person that loves a clean and organized house so just having a part of it cleaned it’s almost like not having anything clean at all.
-I start to write a blog post but can’t find the time or energy to finish or post it. Blogging is something I’ve come to love so I’m not giving up just because it’s challenging to find the time, it just means I blog less than I would like to.
-I cook a simple meal.
-And the list goes on and on…
Sometimes when I think about what I do that has me so tired and that makes it so hard for me to get things done, I don’t even know…. I feel like I do so much, yet so little…
Being a stay at home/work at home mom is tougher than I imagined but I would never change it for the world. I think I just have to make peace with myself that I can’t do it all and just make sure I always have my priorities clear, and follow those through. After all, she’s only this little once. I get this day once. Everything else is not as important, it can always be done some other day but what I live with her today, it’s only today and then it’s gone…
If I could do whatever I wanted, I would be a stay at home mom. There is nothing more rewarding, to me, than being with my toddler all day and seeing her grow. She just lights up my day and gives a whole new meaning to life. She has taught me what’s truly important in life.
Do you ever feel this way?